Happy Birthday, Willow!

24 07 2007

Just this past Saturday we had a birthday get-together for Willow. She turns 5 today.

It seems like it wasn’t very long ago that I got The Call from Lindsey: “Honey, I think you should come home now.” I can still remember hanging up the phone and shuffling dazedly over to Mark’s cubicle and telling him I had to go. He didn’t need me to explain – not that I could have, given my state of mental capacity at the moment. I don’t remember much of the drive home, but I do remember that Lindsey was much more calm and relaxed than I was. I don’t remember driving to the hospital, either. I will never forget, though, the moment Willow took her first breath; she didn’t cry, she just uttered an annoyed grunt. We were so blissfully excited, tears streaming down our faces, that we didn’t even bother to check the gender of the baby. After about twenty seconds (which seemed like a long time) Lindsey said, “Wait! What is it?” We all looked to see whether we were holding Willow Shea or Rowan Emrys.

I remember going out to tell our mothers that we had a little girl named Willow Shea. I was crying uncontrollably because I’d never imagined that a person could experience so much joy, pride and love at one time. Little Willow wasn’t five minutes old, and I already loved her more than I ever thought possible. I loved her since the moment we found out Lindsey was pregnant.

I know infinity to be real because it’s the only thing that can contain the love, joy, and pride Willow invokes in me.

Happy Birthday, Willow.

I love you more than you may ever know.


You can go back to sleep now, Cthulhu

24 07 2007

Well, I’ve heard from various sources that the 1-18-08 movie is not going to be a Cthulhu film.


My interest in the movie has fallen several degrees.


19 07 2007

Have you heard about the 1-18-08 movie yet? It exploded into the public eye when a teaser trailer was seen before the Transformers movie.

This is a beautiful example of viral marketing. All the makers of the film have done is make a mysterious trailer, showed it at the opening of the summer’s biggest blockbuster with no more information than a release date, and set up a website that shows only a few pictures. Everywhere you look, people are sharing ideas of what the movie is about.

I’ve heard three possiblities:
1. It’s a new Godzilla movie. The only thing this theory has going for it is that the whatever it is in the trailer is said to be huge. Other than that… the roar doesn’t sound anything like Godzilla, and I never knew Godzilla to throw things.

2. It’s the smoke monster from Lost. Personally, I know very little about the show Lost. I have no idea what the smoke monster is, but since 1-18-08 is being produced by the same guy that created Lost, this is a good possibility.

3. Cthulhu. I don’t know how much credibility this theory has, but it’s the one I’m hoping for the most. Cthulhu could be a viable explanation for the scream and destruction heard/seen in the teaser. However, I have no idea how much interest (if any) J.J. Abrams has in the Cthulhu Mythos, so this theory might be a bit of stretch.

This could be absolutely huge if it turns out to be a Cthulhu movie. H.P. Lovecraft is a master of horror, and yet we’ve never seen a “big” movie based on any of his stories. The Cthulhu Mythos – and Lovecraft’s works in general – have become a large part of popular culture, especially in horror-related genres. Lovecraft is one of Stephen King’s primary influences; he makes references to Lovecraft’s works in many of his books.

Cthulhu would be a spectacular movie monster. A Great Old One from the blackness between the stars, dead Cthulhu waits dreaming in the vast city R’lyeh beneath the waves of the Pacific Ocean. When the stars and planets are right, the Cthulhu Cult will work to waken their dreaming Priest. The awakening of Cthulhu would mean the end of mankind.

While the actual story, The Call of Cthulhu, might not be very good material to base a movie around – it’s layered in flashbacks – the character of Cthulhu is a perfect apocolyptic force. How would it be destroyed? Can it be destroyed?

I’m almost afraid to find out more information about the movie because I don’t want to be disappointed if it turns out to not be about Cthulhu.

Variation on a favorite

17 07 2007

If you’re not outraged terrified, you’re not paying attention.

It’s like pulling teeth

17 07 2007

I’m taking Speech class online this term, and for our first assignement we had to write a speech introducing ourselves using three aspects of our culture. By “culture”, the instructor means any and every aspect of your life. On one hand that makes it easier to write, but on the other hand, it makes it more difficult. How am I supposed to choose just three aspects of my personality to describe myself? I’m more than that.

I thought about this for about three days, but it never got any clearer. I started several times, only to delete it and start again. Finally I’d had enough and shoved my finger down my mental throat and puked out the required five paragraphs. We were supposed to write it as we would normally speak; this is how I speak, minus the tongue-trippings and if I had a few seconds to mentally organize my thoughts. This is what I wrote:

My name is Chris Mathewson. I’ve been searching my whole life for my own culture, and while I’ve made some discoveries, I’m growing more and more certain that what I would consider to be my culture is undefinable. Being an adopted child, my natural heritage is unknown, uncertain, or so dilluted as to be indistinguishable. On the other hand, however, not having a specific cultural heritage has allowed me to be open to a wide variety of different cultures from around the world, as well as develop my own unique system of beliefs and customs.

I believe that a person’s spirituality is a completely personal experience. It should involve years of study and discovery on one’s own. Just as people are unique in other aspects, their beliefs should be just as unique. That’s why I’ve stopped labeling myself as belonging to any religion. I’ve gone through years of introspection and have a pretty good grasp on my own spirituality. Just like my heritage, my spiritual beliefs are sampled from many, many different faiths, cut and pasted into an amalgam that is unique from anything else.

My tastes in music, movies, and other forms of entertainment are just as varied. There are only a very few musical genres that I genuinely dislike, while my list of favorites ranges from classical music like Beethoven and Tchaikovsky to fast-paced, guitar-driven heavy metal like White Zombie and System of a Down, with a myriad in between. I also enjoy a variety of movies, some that make you think and others that are filled with the crudest of humor. These varying forms of entertainment appeal to different aspects of my personality and imagination.

Albert Einstein once said, “Imagination is more important than knowledge.” The imagination is limitless and I enjoy stretching my mind as far as I can. I read fantasy novels like The Lord of the Rings, watch movies like The Matrix, and partake in my own meditative exercises that force my mind to think outside the accepted boundaries of our known reality. One of my favorite pastimes is contemplating the concept of infinity, and how our reality fits into it.

Socrates said, “The unexamined life is not worth living.” I’m constantly examining my life, evaluating it, and altering it depending on how I feel it is evolving. Though I see what my life should be like, I can’t always make the necessary changes, either because of environmental reasons or simply because of my own laziness and lack of will power. There is a lot of room for improvement in my life, but I’m fairly confident that my perceptions of myself are mostly accurate.

I know. Pretty bad, eh? Hopefully my instructor will see it as a “good first attempt” and be merciful on me.

I wasn’t able to talk about as much as I probably might have liked, were it a blog entry or some such. But I think the things I did talk about serve as the foundation of the other aspects of my personality, culture, etc. These things are why I believe in the things I do. These are the things that I was born with.

Perhaps at a later time I will examine more specific aspects of myself and delve more into why I am the way I am.

So while this exercise was more painful than a tooth extraction, it served to remind me that I can’t stop evaluating myself and improving what is already there.

Action Jeans!

13 07 2007

I so need to get me a pair of these…

Share your iTunes library between multiple computers

13 07 2007

For quite a long time, I was trying to manage two iTunes music libraries; one at work and one at home. I listen to music probably 7 out of 8 hours a day at work, but fairly rarely at home. But when I did listen at home, I didn’t have the same playlists I had at work, since many of them are dynamic, based on play counts and ratings.

I found a remedy a month or so ago, and now I can listen to the same library at work and at home. It works wonderfully.

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